Every day I wake up and want to cry. I manage to get through the day without crying, but it’s all pounding in my head. I’m so tired of it all now, I have no energy to go on any more. Losing you Joanne last week just made my life come to a complete halt. I feel empty and tired. You were beautiful and amazing, I cried so so much when I found out you’d died, but I realised how brave you were. The amount of times people have tried and backed out shows just how brave you were to take your life. I love you and know so many more people loved and always will love you. I know that if you were here, you’d tell me how everything will finally fall into place and not to cry. But now you’re gone everything feels ten times harder to get through. Life is worth a lot more to me now, I have to live it all much more for you. I have to do all those things we used to talk about doing while making our way through our shift at work. Like go paint balling, go to mexico and meet a little Mexican dwarf… Those and many more I promise I will do, but not sure when yet because at the moment I feel like I’m stuck going no where and I really am struggling to get through life. But I just wanted to say that I’ll miss you a lot and will always be asking your advice on something! i love you and have fun up there with like Gandhi and Jesus. They rock. Peace. 

youaremyideaofperfection:

People may not like the direction you are going in but if it makes you happy go for it, i can see it makes you happy and that makes me happy, don’t listen so them, there the ones missing out

Jay, I suck at knowing what to say in these situations. I cannot tell you how sorry I am that you lost your uncle. I know how hard it must be and what you’re going through, but all I want to do is kiss you and promise you it will all get easier. I know you’ve said you’re okay and things but I know that you wouldn’t tell me if you were upset any ways. I just want you to know I love you and will always be there for you. Gahh I said the L word, I know it’s crazy. But I do you fatty, so if you ever read this, you will realise how much of a goon I am.

Caitlyn, I can’t believe what happened to you. For you to feel like ending your life cos of what’s going on, is just a horrible thought. I cried when mum told me you overdosed on pills. You know we’re always here for you bub and always will be. I’m so glad you rang someone to get you an ambulance though sweetheart, and for you to admit yourself into the Mental Health hospital is so so brave. You’re only 17 and to think you have all this going through your head. I know you feel that cos you have ADHD and things that you think that’s the reason your dad left and doesn’t care, but it’s not. You are one of the most awesome people ever and you know that’s what I think! Keep your head up and I’ll come see you again soon! Love you sweet.